Name: Kelsey Miller
Best Known For: Big Girl: How I Gave Up Dieting And Got A Life (2016)
Education: Film & Television, Boston University
Employment: Senior Features Writer, Refinery29
Professional role models: David Sedaris & Tina Fey
How did spending years in therapy help you write a memoir?
The work I did (and still do) in therapy enabled me to grow up and live my life, without which there would be no memoir. I also never would have been able to write about my problems and difficulties without first sorting through them and working my ass off so that they weren’t the controlling force of my life. It’s a lot more complicated than this, but the short version is that I went into therapy feeling like one big problem — I was composed of trauma and disorder and dysfunctional experiences. Therapy doesn’t erase those things but it helped me realize that I’m not simply the sum total of my [problems]. Those things are in me and a part of me, but I don’t have to sit around and wait to be fixed and perfect in order to move forward with my life. I always thought you had to be All Better with a capital B in order to write a reflective memoir. Nope. You just get on with your life and your goals, issues or not.
Do you think your theatre training has helped you become a better storyteller?
Man, I sure hope so. I’d like to think my parents’ investment in a decade’s worth of theatre training paid off somehow. I’d always enjoyed storytelling and have huge admiration for good storytellers. (My mom and dad are both incredibly funny and I used to wish I could crack up a dinner table the way they could.) I haven’t done theatre in ages, but there are certain lessons that will always be with me: finding your intention in a scene, showing and not telling, etc. Those are all good instincts for writers as well.
The series premiere of ‘I Used To Be Fat’ overlapped with the end of the holiday season, during which millions of people indulged in delectable home-cooked meals and family dinners. Now that it’s time to shed those extra pounds, MTV is stepping in by making a weekly hour-long weight loss infomercial targeted at youth. Each week, viewers can tune in to watch the transformations of college-bound high school seniors like Gabriella and Marci, who are tired of feeling embarrassed because of their weight.
In the first episode, Gabriella proclaims that she wants to become “fit, fabulous, and fierce” and expresses her determination to revamp her image by snapping her fingers. After showing close-ups of her holding her tummy and upper arm fat, the producers turn to her social drama, wherein she argues with her mother, Arleen, who wants Gabriella to be “perfect”. “I want her to be happy, but thinner”, Arleen says.
While chatting at the kitchen table, Arleen reveals she has treated Gabriella like some sort of science experiment, by leaving out a tray of cookies and tracking how long it takes Gabriella to start snacking on them.
Cue the peppy theme song with the lyrics, “this is a new year, a new beginning”, thus signalling that MTV aspires to inspire viewers to fulfill their resolutions, which are typically abandoned shortly after New Year’s Eve. As per the confessional style common amongst reality shows, Gabriella explains that she told herself in previous years that she’ll finally make big changes in her life, yet failed to follow through on her ambitions. I think her trainer’s best piece of advice was telling Gabriella to stop using the phrase “I messed everything up”.
In the end, when Gabriella steps on the scale for her final weigh-in, she looks much cheerier and satisfied with her now slender figure. Despite its inspirational potential however, it is questionable how the show will make a dramatic difference for the average American teenager. What about viewers who can’t afford their own silly band wearing personal trainer? What if kids with similar snacking habits lose hope because they think Gabriella’s success is mainly attributable to her new motivational sidekick, courtesy of MTV?
Should people know how awful a first grader feels after being called “fatso”? Absolutely, but that doesn’t mean there needs to be an entire TV series about it. The concept of encouraging youth to lead healthier lifestyles is great in theory, but kids are humiliated enough as it is and there’s no need for people to watch them struggle with weight lifting or rock climbing.
If MTV wants youth to bear closer resemblance to pop stars with strict workout regimes than those who frequently supersize their order, they should offer fitness DVDs as giveaways at their shows.
As the World Health Organization revises its guidelines for exercise, with an emphasis on fitness rather than fatness, fat politics remains a culturally significant issue and one that MTV should carefully address in their latest series.
